Wednesday, July 20, 2005

Expected case

I've guessed as much.

I'm not sure how to contact her. Her emails are not working, i lost her HP number, she's forever not online in msn. Maybe i should try ICQ?

I see this day coming. I know i'm bad. But the 2 brothers are so alike that this is inevitable. I had my taste of it and i know how selfish they are.
I was heartbroken when he said he wants to go overseas to work... without me.
I was heartbroken when he told me that he wish to study more.. or rather, forever, so that he doesn't have to work. Think he prefers to live off his parents.
I was heartbroken when he said marriage is never on his mind.
I was even more heartbroken when he said he will marry me 5 years later if i agree to patch back.

I remember clearly on the conversation i had with her in MSN last year. She's 29 last year... approaching the precious 30.. which marriage seems to be a must!
Career, money.. none. He had none. I told her to consider carefully if she still wants to be with him and told her not to hang on to the r/s... There was no security at all.
And I believe his selfishness has caused the breakup. 5 years.
Ok, it's hard. I can't even break up with him when i knew i had no future with him. I held on to. Holding on to an inconceivable relationship.

I knew she will ended up like me making a harsh decision.
The 2 brothers think the same.

I'm just glad i'm out of it.

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